Wonderfulnwild, 42

Hello! I am a 42 & single by choice. I have had 2 failed relationships but not marriages, smart enough to not go all in but not strong enough to walk away sooner.. I initially had a, I guess you can call it a automatic reaction to do what I did after my first failed relationship, which was to Vow to stay single and never love again, but now just 1 week after walking away from another 10 year relationship, I am pleased to say” I want love and I want it now” I know that I deserve it and I know how to reciprocate it!! I am seeking a trucker because I too want to be a trucker!! I want to have a real partnership and my love language is QT so no better way in my mind to get the best of both worlds!! I decided some time back that trucking would be my retirement plan after my kids were out the nest! So the plan was for my ex and I to do cross country in our own truck and live by our own rules!! So I still have that dream just need to replace my main character.. So my thought is while I’m still going to be stationary for the next few years waiting on my last two kids to follow in their elder siblings footsteps, I want to take this time to get to know a life partner that I can get to know until we can be on the road together.. Although life circumstances and challenges has tried to turn me into a mean bitter checked out soul, my light is to bright to block out.. I am a simplistic and the best things in life to me really are free. I crave deep conversations and hilarious laughter. I thrive off of effort and attempt.. I have the capacity and comprehension to love respectfully and continuously regardless if we are apart. My best qualities are understanding, non-judgmental, compromising, appreciative, making the people and especially the person I love happy, truly makes me happiest! I am looking for someone who has a simple soul that craves genuine love and affection.. someone who will always find peace in a sunrise/set or a rainbow!! Or else I’m getting a dog n we hi